Coy Boy: the late rising Wolf Moon

So, you think you can stand me up?
I was there at 10.  I was freezing, I might add.
Do you really think you can treat me this way, Mr. Wolf Moon?

What was that? I stood you up all month?
You expect something more in effort...say meeting you when you are actually rising?

Well, perhaps you make a valid point.  What time would that be exactly?

Are you freaking kidding me?  You are rising at 12:36 am?  

Uh Uh.  No. I'm not doing it. I'm not getting up at 3:30 am so I can see your shiny moon ass rise over my neighbor's house. Nope. Nope. Nope.

What?  I can see you at 6:30 am or 7:30 am?

Oh. I can do that.  You mean I can see you while I drink some morning coffee?  

Well yes, I agree. Just because it is daylight doesn't mean you aren't as beautiful.

So, we've made up then?  Aw. really? the next full moon is Valentine's Day?  How sweet!!  

I'll save a candy heart for you "Call Me" or better yet, "Let's Kiss".  
I so very much need your kiss.

Hey Dude; the late waning Wolf Moon

Hey! There you are. I finally found you.  On my way to an appointment, late as usual, racing up a snow covered street and WHAM! There you are, the moon, large and bright in the lower sky over Randall's house. I'm actually not sure that is his name, as he and I have never met; but he looks like a Randall as he mows his lawn or trims his cherry tree.  We wave. Our "intimacy". 

So, yeah, back to you Mr. Wolf Moon, sir...
There you were, in vivid Moon glory and I thought you were waxing for a sec... but then I was sure your were waning.  Either way, you were gibbous, pregnant and full of moon surface.  

Then I wasn't sure you were the Wolf Moon at all and panic struck that I have strayed so far from my rites and rituals.  I am unborn- a kind of 'born again' in reverse-  something has pulled nature from me and I feel unfamiliar to its rhythms.  I am the lost.  

But not so fast, Mr. Wolf, don't write me off just yet.  The fact that I noticed you at all must mean that I am not beyond redemption.  So, how about a date, later, after dark? when the neighbor children are asleep? Let's say 10 ish?  I'll meet you where I have always, in my best birthday dress.  You and I can stare at each other a bit and then perhaps I might coax you to envelope me, caress my darkness with your light?  Just a little flirt to remind us that we both still exist...
a kiss of light to re-awake my soul.

Warranty Expiring

I missed the New Moon. I missed the Full Moon.  To make it more clear how out of touch I have been, I didn't even know I missed these events until the Buddhist told me so.  Oops! My bad.

I'm preoccupied with a truth...
I am running out of time. 
Not death...No, not that final.  
But I am talking about aging, or more to the point, a very specific female type of aging. I'm referring to menopause.

My body seems to be on one mission right now and it has taken me by surprise.  I am consumed by a need to have one great last fling, an overtly sexual flirtation, a clandestine encounter of naughtiness. I love my partner, the Buddhist. He is a good, solid partner providing what I need in all forays.  And he pleases. 

But my body has some other idea.  The clock is ticking to some end, and my body is craving validation of its virility.  It whispers "Last Call" and like a late night drinker, I desire an elixir to stave the crave. 

I sense that the me that I have known is quieting ever so slightly daily.  Do I hold out hope of resisting?  Do I pretend that I will not change?  As we are mostly chemicals, and mine are definitely shifting, I can't see that change won't occur.  So, my body also screams "HURRY" in the growing quiet and while I am loyal and true; I'm also antsy. Fidgety.

My internal odometer is about to shift out of the warranty period and I finally understand what moves a  fifty year old man to discard their wife and take up with a young filly.  It is what I seek too-

Youth. 

And since I can't have it, I'll accept a costume to hide my truth.  Blonde highlights, a little lipstick, a touch of foundation, a smile, a flirt...
But nothing will stop this body from the warranty end.